Nocci

Hi, it was a while sense i last wrote. I think i now what you're thinking... Why is she writing in english?
Honestly i don't have a good answer, i just got a sudden urge to write.. just write. I'm sick of thinking, sick of wishing, i'm just tired. I keep waiting on life to change, for me to change. But it just doesn't happen.
I don't know why? Is it me? Am I weird? I would really like someone to just tell me. who am i? how do they see me? Why can't just someone be honest?! I'm not going to be hurt, if i thought i would, i woudn't ask...